My eyes stay shut.
I’d rather not
Open them wide to fill the room
With tears
With fear
With hate
With pain.
No way,
I don’t want you to know.
Please leave.
Please close that door.
A section’s missing from my diary.
If only I could clean my soul
Erase the memories
Rewrite our history.
I’m sorry it was me
with you
and really sorry it was you
with me.
You know, no matter what I say
Or what I let you think
Or even when I smile
Or hug you
Or kiss you goodbye
I’m shuttering inside.
I’m still not over you.